Busy. Good? Bad?

Hi Peeps, 

Once again! Another update after few weeks. Well, life just become more hectic and busy than usual. Things like need to get assignment done, preparation for orphanage visit done, banner done. This done, that done, everything done done. Though it seems to be hectic, scheduled everyday til max, so that I can really make use of my life/time. 

Well, friends commented, saying that I seem to be tensed up and very busy recently. However, frankly speaking, I like this feeling quite a lot. Feels like there's so much thing to be done is waiting ahead. Call me a weirdo, I know. 

At this point, I realize things just got complicated than I have expected.

Today, sitting in the bus, calling my mum, the last word she said to me is Take Care, really made me feel so warm and touched. I was about to cry, but I din't. Manage to stop the tears rolling down. Good job, Shu Yi!

I was thinking is it good for me to be busy? So that I'll spend lesser time to think nonsense, so that I can learn more to fill up my satisfaction, so that I can live up to my expectation? On the other hand, I have lesser time to chat with him. When was the last time we cam and talk to each other? I seriously don't remember it. I mean it's quite a mature act that we don't need to stick to each other everyday, we don't need to text each other everyday. But, don't you think it's somehow wrong that I get very little updates bout his recent life and the same thing happens on him as well?

He said the amount of time doesn't really matter, what matters the most is the quality of the time spent. I know what he said is right and I ought to agree with it. But, I sensed something change.

"I used to talk to you bout the problems I had, I used to talk to you bout what I did from day to day. But now, I don't talk my problems. I handle them without you, do you notice that? Do you actually realize I'm growing without you?"

That's the thing I wanted to tell him so badly recently. Our conversation nowadays are just touching the surface, nothing deep, nothing that needs a lot of thinking and analyzing situation or decision making. I think it'll be sad if someday you realize the person you know the most has actually become someone you used to know. Hopefully this will not happen. Pray pray!

First semester in degree

Whoopee, it's finally come to my first sem of the degree year. Well, I read my last post before I start blogging, and I realize it was super negative. Was that really me? Is it due to PMS? Duhh.. I don't know, however, I love my life at the moment. I enjoy everything here in my degree first semester.

As I have said earlier, I went back to Nilai for orientation week. Unfortunately, none of us went to the orientation in the end, and ended up going back home on that Wednesday. 

And few days later, which is the following Monday, my classes commenced as it has schedule. Well, nothing much to reveal about the subjects taken. So far, I think my lecturer are quite friendly and helpful though one of them is giving my a lot of headache and confusion during the lesson. 

On the second week of the semester, there's a Japanese high school student visit my campus and I'm one of the helper showing them around my college. Well, their English is not that good but I still had a good time with them. Learnt a lot about Japanese culture, get to know those pretty girls and handsome guys. Hahahas. It was really fun, especially their presentation. I like the dance called Otagei the most, well the guys danced with a super duper huge and bright fluorescent thingy in their hand. Get to have one after their performance as a souvenir. Other than that, the students also gave each helper a pencil holder which is made of their local famous trunk (Don't quite remember their name) crafted with "Yamashiro Prefectorial High School". It was a short trip yet a lot of fun and memories. I'll never forget you girls, Minori, Miran, Akina and few more to be named.

Other than that, I also involved actively in Tchoukball. It 's a gentlemen game whereby no snatching, no pushing and no interruption is the rules that we've got to follow. I can't explain how does the game go here, but if you like to know more, talk to me in real, and I'll explain everything for you. Or you can simply google Tchoukball, and you will find a lot information.

Moving on, I had to decide on whether go to Christian Fellowship Camp or the 7th Utar National Maths Competition. Both falls on the same date, but only one can be chosen. Which one do you think will be more beneficial? I don't know, give me some time to think over it.

I also decided to join Emmy's club, which is Dance and Event club. They will be having a grand event on the coming August, and I shall help out in the event, only then they will put me in the right position during the coming Annual General Meeting. Oh, I also joined NUC Boardgame Club, where people gather and play chess, monopoly, scrabble. Well, you name it, they have it. Hmm, what else? One more thing, I'm going to join the 24 Festive Drum. Hehe, is definitely something new to me and hopefully I will enjoy it a lot. Well, 1 sad thing about this semester, which is French class is most likely to be cancelled throughout the semester, or maybe there is no more French Class. Sob Sob. 

Well, that's the update of my recent life. A hectic life but enjoyable. It's fun to be here! See ya!

It's my life.

Hello people, (i supposed no one is here to read anymore) I'm packing up my stuff and prepare to get back to campus tomorrow. Monday shall be the first day I'm having orientation in Nilai. I wonder would it be the same in Matrikulasi or it's something fun or more exciting. For your information, I'm taking degree in Accounting and Finance. Well, right now there are still people who feel insecure about the uncertainties in signing up for the program because it's new and we are not guaranteed to get certificate from Oxford Brooke University. However, I'm not one the group. People who is updated to what I've been through should know that I got SPM 7A+ at first and I wasn't being offered JPA scholarship, but Matrikulasi. For all other scholarships, I wasn't being called for interview except KLIA scholarship ( I gave up the chance at the end) and I secured Nilai's scholarship. Been into Matrikulasi Perlis for one week and out for NUC for 4 years program.

Up to this point of time, it still seems that I've been having a good time. Things were good and life's good, everything went on according to it's plan. But, for heaven's sake, it's a no. Since news been released that only 8A+ students will be guaranteed a JPA scholarship, I've been scolding myself for lacking 1A+ behind. And guess what? I got 8A+ actually, that's what written in my SPM certificate. Daddy's went for kidney dialysis and couldn't claim anymore money from the insurance. My brother resign and hasn't been working for 6 months (Thank god, he started working tonight). Life is like a total misery to me. Right at that time, I feel so much hatred in my heart, my mind keeps telling me "YOU DESERVE SOMETHING BETTER!" and for this reason I've seen a few people to get advice from them, asking what can I do with the new A+ given to me. After a few days of crying and struggling, I decided to let go in the end. Realize that there's no way out, there's nothing I can do with it. I gave up. Tears rolled down and I tell myself "it's ok, dear. Let the time pass and the memories will fade. Things are gonna be alright soon."

Well, one of the reasons I wanted the JPA scholarship is I realized there were so many hidden things I don't see in Nilai. Education quality especially. I wanted to go oversea or maybe some local prestigious university ( I know probably there are none, but there's definitely university which are way damn better than Nilai). However, the truth is if I want to leave Nilai, I gotta repay them about RM20k, which is quite a big burden to my family. It really took me some time to forget what happened and to stay in peace when people start mentioning it to me. At the end of semester 3, I met a scholar who is about to leave Nilai after her foundation. She told me Nilai did not seek any compensation from her. Then, another girl came to me ask if I wanna transfer or leave Nilai. For the first time in my life, I feel so tired. Can you all please stop asking me where I want to go? Do you actually understand it's hard for me to give up not to study overseas, to give up seeking another chance for JPA scholarship or others?

Yet, when I come home, my parents, my brother, everyone seem to be so fine. Am I really the only one worrying and bothering about all these stupid things? Or do you all just pretend that nothing happen? Conclusion, when circumstances give you only one choice, take it or break it. I took it. Stay in Nilai. Pretend nothing's happened. I'm happy. I'm fine.

I remember I used to be a princess in the house. There's nothing that I need to worry. But, when I was 15. My daddy's kidney problem just gotten worse, brother wasn't in the house, mother and I start arranging things for father, like admission into hospital, operation and etc. Then, my grandmother was admitted into hospital as well due to cancer and finally she's gone. Not long after that, I received a phone call from my mother, saying dad's health condition is at worst, dialysis is the only way out. So, we took the option, sent him for dialysis. Ever since then, I realized I got to grow up, start taking care of the family especially when brother is not around. Two years later, mummy got slipped disc. I found the doctor for her, arranged every appointment for her, sent her to the hospital, called the insurance company for the claim. Then, I knew I really grew up. I did things that I wasn't able to do when I was 15. And I wonder if you guys know, on the graduation ceremony, my mum went into the operation theater alone. I remember Jinyi was surprised that I didn't cry for all of us gonna go further apart soon, leaving each other. But I burst into tears once I got home, called my mum for so many times but she didn't pick up the phone. I bet Jinyi wouldn't know if I cried that day, those tears would be for my mother, not them.

Shits really happen in life. There are really some super duper sucks moments in life, like afraid of losing your family members, not being able to achieve your dream, giving up the things that seems to be utmost to you or maybe breaking up seems to be so near.

For a coward people like me, I'm just gonna tell myself " Shits happen, but life still goes on. Time heals." I'm sorry for not being someone brave. I know I'm not a person who can make lemonade when life gives me a lemon.

For people who are reading this post, if you think your life is much more worse than mine and I should stop complaining because complaining doesn't help at all. I'm sorry, I'm still gonna tell you I deserve the right to complain and I decide the time when I want to stand up. It's my life and I don't make a fool out of me to please you.

It's been 3 months

Hope there will still be people reading my blog after it was shut down for at least 3 months.

Well, same thing. Life's good, or maybe I should say "It's Awesome!"

A quickly brief about my recent life.
It's my final semester in Foundation in Business. Within 2 weeks time, I'll be having finals and I'm graduating from FIB. Surely there would be some friends leaving, eg. Irene and Edwin is leaving Nilai. Just celebrated their birthday last night, it was fun, hope it could be a memorable birthday to both of you.

By the way, I'm once again getting involved in Haunted House! The only difference is I'm the one organizing, helping out and selling tickets instead the one walking in the hall and got freaked out! Hehehee...

Thanks Allan for asking Emmy to relocate me. However, I was a bit regret to stay outside and not being one of the 'ghost'. I should take it as experience at the first place, anyway, it's another successful event by FUN club and the last event as well.
I don't know who will be leaving Nilai or having different courses in Degree from me, I wish you guys all the best and DO REMEMBER ME!
Although it has been a year with you guys, and I'm not so close with most of you, but I had an awesome Foundation year with you guys, thank you! and I'll miss whoever is leaving soon.

Sem 3 has been a hectic semester. I guess everyone agrees with me. 2500 words academic essay was difficult but it was not as hard as I thought or expected. At least, each of us has completed our own essay, and I hope no one would be called for VIVA.

Anyway, we met Mr. Mano Maniam yesterday, 1 of the actor in Anna and the King. He introduced us a new subject called Theatre and Acting and it'll be launched in the next semester. The class is filled with so much fun, volunteers started to act according what he told them, cracking jokes, and having fun to the max. I've never thought we'll be having this kind of course here. Anyway, only 25 students can enroll in his class each semester. I'm not sure whether I'll be taking up his subject or not, but I'm pretty sure his class is gonna be so lively and enjoyable.

Last but not least, I enrolled in French class this semester. Our tutors are quite good. Since it's their first time teaching, I would rate them 8 out of 10. Don't you guys worry, you all did a great job! I know I'm still not so good in French, but I'll do my best, and I'm learning something new in every lesson. I'm getting quite happy that I can at least understand you all said 'Semester prochaine' hahahas!

Bonjour, je m'appelle Stalie. J'ai 19 ans. Je taime Francais! hehe!
Aujourdui!

Take care guys and have a great day.

Best regards,
Stalie aka -WaterFisH-

Nescafe Dolce Gusto

Hello guys,

Have you heard of the Nescafe Dolce Gusto?

Today is my first visit to Seremban Tesco Extra, had my lunch at the See U. Well, they serve fresh seafood for steamboat, it's worth trying. I'm recommending it here for you guys!

Well bout my title for this post. Nescafe Dolce Gusto is a new product from Nescafe.


That's the machine we use to produce Dolce Gusto product.
Dolce Gusto provides a wide range of coffee product.
Mocha, Latte, Expresso and etc.



Look at these colorful capsules, there are the ingredients you need to brew a nice cup of coffee.

Just insert the capsule to the machine, with a few click on the volume of water, you can brew a nice cup of mocha at home.

Cheap, Fast, and Convenient! Where else can you get it?

I sound like a Dolce Gusto promoter.

I seriously wanted to get that machine. It's only RM300++
But, both my parents don't want it since they don't really drink Cappucino, Latte or Mocha.

Slurp!!

Chinese New Year is around the corner, but the biscuit I baked was not so popular, not much buyer. Sobb Sobb..

Anyway, take care guys.
See you all soon during new year.

New Year's Resolution

New Year's Resolution

2011 is going to the end. Obviously, it's time to make a reflection.

In 2011,
I went to Perlis for the first time.
I took plane back from Alor Setar to LCCT alone.
I've been awarded a scholarship from Nilai UC.
I work as a telemarketer, earn the first salary in my life.
I went into the haunted house for the first time of my life.
I drank beer and got a bit dizzy and vomited in the end, well, first time as well.
I learnt how to take public transportation, it seemed to be impossible for me to take a bus to Seremban last year. xD

Good things were listed as above, it's time to see what mistake I made during the year.

In 2011,
I chose Matrikulasi over Nilai UC, but at the end I went to Nilai UC. As a result, I have wasted too much money on air ticket and re-buying some necessities.
Lesson : Compare the choices, make the best decision, and live it on. Do not look back as you may regret.

Nilai UC canteen serves food at a big portion, in order not to waste food, I always finished whatever is on my plate. Hence, I gained weight by a lottttttt!
Lesson : Bring a container next time so that I can keep the leftover when I'm full. Save myself from going obese!

In Nilai UC, I met a lot of great people. They all have big dreams, and they do not only dream, they did their best to achieve it as well.
Lesson : It doesn't matter how big is your dream, as long as it keeps you moving, that dream should be kept in your mind and heart.

More and more to go, but I'm not going to post anything more bout it, because it's already 11.30pm, I'm afraid I can't come out my resolutions by 2012.

All right, here come the new year's resolutions!

In 2012,
1. I want to lose weight! (The most important, or else I couldn't fit in any size of the shirt at the end of 2012)
2. I want to get a part time job. (It's always better to have extra money)
3. I want to remain my scholarship with the highest pointer I can get. (Even 4.0 seems impossible, but please keep it as my motivation)
4. I want to pick up my chess skill. (I brought the whole chess set and notes to NUC, but I always don't have time for it. Stalie, time management is important, save time for more beneficial things rather than facebook-ing and playing games)
5. I want to get involved in some charity work. (Harvest learning centre if possible)
6. I want to read more books! (Stop focusing on fiction novel, mum is getting mad with you!)
7. Register the French language course even though I do not have companion. (Sometimes, you just have to get used to being alone.)
8. Practice healthy lifestyle. (Sleep early, wake up early, more exercise, balanced diet)

Happy New Year everyone, may everything have a good beginning for you in 2012.

May what it will be, it'll be.

Hello readers,

I'm having some kind of relationship problem over these few days and crying over and over again bout it. Well, I'm sure you all noticed that my finals have just started. Tsk tsk..
How can my mood be influenced so easily at this critical moment? Hahas, it doesn't matter now.

I seriously don't want to think about all those thing for now. Well, what should not I be enjoying the moment? What should I be worrying about things that may or may not happen?

To my readers,

Remember this thing.

Though it might be hard to let go sometime,
though it might hurt but never last,
listen to your heart,
hold on to things that you don't want to let go,
at least make some effort before you truly giving up,
enjoy if you like it,
though you might ask yourself does it worth,
but sometimes,
you just have to understand what is
live your life with no regret.

Last but not least,
what it will be, it'll be that way.

I'm not deciding to hold on or to give up this relationship, yet I decide to enjoy all those joy that he bring to me. I stop asking myself does it worth, but I asked myself to enjoy and not regret.

Does not matter if he will be here long or not,
God sent him to me for some reasons,
learn to appreciate when things are still right,
learn to let go when things gone wrong,
and learn that if someone leaves,
it just simply means that their part in your story had just ended.

May what it will be, it'll be.
Stay strong, stay tough, and stay happy!

Good luck for the finals. Gambateh!