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Sorry, I can't think of any title to fit in for the topic today. I wanted to write a post about this few days ago, but I always forgot, blame me blame me!!

Have you ever read story or post from forums or maybe facebook about distance? I bet you have come across this, maybe just a while ago. Here is the story that I'm gonna share here today.

The best friend that I had before, she is a pretty cunning one, she likes to fool people ( nothing bad bout this, probably she is just a little bit playful ). We've been through hard time, I mean really hard. She was the one which I had idea of " she's the only one, and one is enough ", but all of a sudden, she don't talk to me anymore, and that's last for 1 year. Guys, you really have idea how bad I feel that time? When she decide to transfer school, the day before school reopen, she text me " Heyy! Nothing much to say. See you tomorrow in school! " When I read this message, I take it as usual, as if she is just too boring and would text me this message. Something terrible happen next day, I went to school, I can't find her anywhere. Everyone knows that she've transferred to somewhere else. And I, as the best friend, know nothing about it.

Second time, B girl, we were very close. She told me that she is not going to have a new bf for a moment until she have finish her exam. But, when news spread around, saying that she have a new bf. I still defense her, I said " She said she's not gonna to get a new bf. " I trust her, I believe every word she told me. Apparently, she lied.

Third time, C girl, she din't went to the graduation trip. I din't feel anything bad about this before, until a girl told me " How do I feel as my best friend din't want to go with us?" I said " Nothing, I'm fine, great! " I dint lie, I was really great. New year eve, which also mean to be her surprise birthday party. She rather go out to yam cha than having bbq with us. I think she knew what are we going to do, but she don't want to go. When everyone thought that I know what's her reason for doing this, not going that and everything. Frankly speaking, I know NOTHING!

Three of them seems to be my best friend. I thought we were, I thought we were close, heart to heart. But every incident that had happened eventually reflected, NO! We were not close.

You really have no idea I feel when everyone know what things happened around, what had happened on you, yet I know nothing. You choose to keep every secret, while everyone thought I suppose know it.

- Do you know how it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed? -

I bet, you don't know. You don't know how much I cherish this friendship. You don't know I've really tired of this, sick of it, and how much I wish to escape from this.