just finished science sub paper.
please please. i want my chemistry paper to score 85 and above. i've been working so hard on this subject. physics too.
i dont know why every time i thought that the paper should be ok but ended up with unexpected bad grade >< hate it hate it hate it!
took my account paper for 2 continous days and until almost 5 only go back home. man. tats so tiring.
when i took my paper 1, i think my account paper probably can score A. but after i took my paper 2, what i hope is to get at least a B. i cant afford to see any 40 or 50 on my papers. tat is sooo terrible!
finished my ict paper yesterday and scolded by the teacher.
i really dont mean to ask answer from you. i swear!
u told me the answer is already there. u said the question is correct. u scold me u will deduct my marks if i keep on ask for the answer.
but i dont understand the question.
after all, connie show me question booklet from the graduates.
alright, my wrong. i cant even understand the question, not to mention for the diagram too.
what i can say is i will work hard on ict paper. i will never take this paper easy anymore. and please for the others. you thought that bio is harder than ict. lk is harder too. im not here to say that ict is the hardest paper among this 3 subject.
but all of us have our own problem with our subject. i never say bio is easy. i never say lk is easy even tho leow got 100 every time. so do u guys too. please be consider for us too.
u never know it hurts when u think my paper is easy but i still cant do it well.

gonna start with language sub and sj next week.
going to attend the selection test tomorrow.
i want my sejarah to get prepared as soon as possible.
i plan to finish form 5 and part of form 4 tonight.
please stalie. you gotta be fast. stay away from the computer. it is a temptation! and you know you couldnt resist it.

PLAN YOUR WORK
WORK YOUR PLAN

3rd world war! xD

Exam starts on tomolo until the friday right before the semester holiday.
i dun remember when is it. =P
but nevermind. it doesnt matter.
even tho i start prepare earlier than usual and take this exam more seriously but im still not confident to sit for the papers. it seems like is all because of i only concentrate on chemistry. i did lot of exercise but still not so good. maybe im tooooo focus on the salt chapter?
just finish revise physics. never study it hard. i dont expect to score well in physics. somewhere around 80 should satisfy me.
gonna start with my ict later. one more thing is my add maths.
i dun think i can score as high as i did lastime. what a mess.
the most terrible thing is i haven start revise on my sejarah.
gonna run out of time. everything have to rush rush n rush ><
good luck for everyone sitting for the papers for the next following 2 weeks.
one more thing. no more cheat in exam please.
i really despise those who cheats.
3rd world war is coming. everyone run for ur life!! xD
jiayous for all.

mummy mummy I LOVE U!

she wakes me up every morning. even tho today is saturday.
she brought for a haircut at a very old hair saloon ( where i used to cut my hairs. since i remember, i never cut my hair at other places. ）
she gave me suggestion on which haircut or what hair style suits me.
then she brought me to buy something.
she HOLD my hands while crossing streets.
u never know how good it feels if your parents still hold ur hands even tho u already 17. im truely their baby girl. For ever.

i remember the scene u told me.
the 3 years old boy scream " mummy mummy, i love u so much！” in the public.
people might be thinking is a little boy, dare to say anything and do anything in public. nothing to surprise. but whoever heard that absolutely will feel so SWEET!
i bet every mother in the world would love to hear that too.
ever since you told me the scene, i've been despo to tell you i love you as much as the little boy loves his mother.
but i dont know why am i so shy to tell you.
after that, i keep on tell you i love you so much with the joking tone.
i know you'll be thinking why i keep on having fun on that little boy.
but you never know how i admire him for his courage to tell his mother he loves her so much.. the boy might not know how people will think of him. maybe he is acting silly or he is reli a brave guy.

perhaps you will still hold my hands even tho im 80 and u r 100.
that must be the sweetest thing in the world.
i cant afford to lose you, mum. i love u.

ASEAN

just received test call email from MOE today.
i was like OMG! i got selected again.
but when i read through it.
is like * uh.. y choose that date, y dont have the test on holiday *
after that i called erika, mei yan, ying, soh.
the most terrible thing is mei yan dint even send in the application form.
the rest dint receive the mail too.
i wish that the email may be just late for 1 or 2 days.
at least. gimme another fren to be shortlisted for the test aso. PLS PLS PLS!
i reli dont want to go for the test alone again.
u never know how does it feel.
the last selection test i went, the candidates attended with frens.
and i'm alone there while my parents waiting at outside.
when everyone is busy gossiping, the only thing i can do is just sit there and keep quiet.
EW! i just HATE to do things alone lar.

the thermo pot

Guys.This is real. I have a thermo pot. but the button all not functioning and i dont know why. my mum said that happened since yesterday morning. so i decided to call the service centre. Erm. Cornell Service Center. LOL!

first, i called the malacca one.
*M = me myself, stalie. *O = the operator

M : hello. is this cornell service centre?
O : Sorry. this is "PANASONIC" service centre.
M : okay. thanks.

i was like kinda. shock? how come i called a panasonic centre instead of the cornell centre while i was refer to the warranty card. then i decided to call the petaling jaya one. *du du..* ah ah. nobody picks up my call. fine. then i called the penang one.

M : hello. is this cornell service centre ?
O : Yes. how can i help you?
M : i have a thermo pot. but the button is not functioning. i was wondering which service centre should i send to.
O : .... ( mayb due to the low signal. i couldn't hear what she said )
erm. we have 2 service centre. one at " Pararut " and another one at "Jelubu "

* i was thinking : huh? jelubu? so near one?

M : Jelubu one? can you please give me the jelubu service centre contact number?
O : Miss. you are calling the JELUGOH service centre right now.

* huh? Jelebu or Jelugoh. and where is it? *

M : oh. im sorry. then how about the "PARARUT " one? where is it located? i mean which state?
O : It is just opposite the shell station.

*what? there are so many shell station in Msia and you are trying to ask me to look one by one? *

M : Nono. i mean which state?
O : Huh? im sorry. what what state?
M : State. like erm NS. Malacca. Selangor.
O : Owh.. you are from Malacca?
M : No. from NS.
O : NS? where is it located? and which place it near to?

* oh my god! you dont even know where is negeri sembilan. have you ever study geography before? *

M : It is near to KL or malacca.
O : Oh. then you can send it to malacca service centre or the petaling jaya one.
M : Malacca? where is the service centre located?
O : Tmn. Peringgit Jaya.

* i look through the warranty card again. owh ya. peringgit jaya. but i called there just now. they are the panasonic one. (=.=) *

M : I'm sorry. i've called the malacca one just one. but they said there is Panasonic service centre.
O : Oh no. is PENSONIC service centre. Cornell products are PENSONIC products. they are under PENSONIC one.
M : okay. thanks.

* what? PENSONIC? and not Panasonic? damn. why couldn't you guys try to name it nicely. Pensonic and panasonic sounds alike. somemore we are talking on the phone. how do i know if you were saying Pensonic while i only get to know Panasonic. ==' *

err.. undescribable

i received your message tonight.
you just seems like nothing happened.
acting as usual.

well. you can.
but i cant.
i couldnt pretend that nothing happen at all.
my reply isnt as usual or what i used to write.
i guess you wouldnt realize if anything went wrong.
you are those typical guys with a very very weak sense.
duhh. what to do?

yet.
i write you another message.
but you never reply.
i'm not sure whether im asking those stupid / lame question or not.
but
frankly
i miss you.

2010 teacher's day

Having teacher's day celebration at school yesterday.
This should be one of the memorable day in 2010.
guess what?
we bought a blueberry cake to surprise our class teacher.
randy and mei yan went to office and got our teacher.
then they told her that connie faint in class.
so the teacher rushed to our class. Muahaha!!
but when she reach our class, she feel like something wrong with us.
ahh.
nevermind. still a happy teacher's day.

then at night we have dinner with cjj as celebration.
lol.
they said wan go yam cha after dinner. my god!?!
i dont know how that thing ended up. Lols.

long lasting or NOT?

guess you are the main reason

guess you are the one who made me feel so down lately

you know

i've always wanted to be strong. to be tough as others.

i've tried not to cry easily. i've tried to be independent.

really. i swear!

but to you.

i never wanted to be the tough girl in front of you.

i tell you what happened around me everyday.

and i never thought that would burden you.

im so sorry.

the moment i received my message. my heart SINK

compare to you.

my case is far less smaller and easy to handle.

i know.

that isn't a very serious thing actually.

but im trying to tell everything to you.

because i believe that would make me feel better.

sorry to be selfish.

cause i never thought that that would make you feel worse while im getting better.

for the last 3 years

you never vent your anger.

you never scold me.

you never scold vulgar in front of me. ( mayb u did. once or twice.. but u didn't mean to scold me. rite?)

i keep on convince myself that

you dont mean to be rude to me.

you dont mean to scold me.

you dont mean to hurt me.

you are not in a good mood.

i've run into you at a wrong time.

but that doesn't help me to stop thinking about the message.

i apologized. and you gave a well mannered respond.

maybe you never realized.

but i saw it.

the scratches.

it'll never recover.

i dont even know how to talk to you.

if i never text you. will u text me again?

for every now and then.

i keep an eyes on my phone screen.

waiting for your message.

acting like a silly.

im so scared to feel helpless whenever you are not around.

but you and i

will never be the same if we ever meet again. rite?

i dont know how long would this last.

Changes

Here goes stalie on the way marching to 17 years old.

well yeah.

thats soooo fast.

Im already form 5

Im already in the last year of secondary school life.

Im almost reach the year to get a car license.

Im almost reach the time to leave my parents, my house for months.

you'll never know that time passes so quickly but

someday you'll realize that you've already gone so far.

so far away from the starting point.

i read that passage that morning.

" the scariest thing is to watch at the clock. hearing the tick tock sound. watching the needle moving. feel ur time passes. feel ur life is getting to the end. "

well yeah.

that scares me.

when i read that. i just feel like

" oh GOSH! im 17.. 17!! damn.. y i keep on wasting my time until i never get anything i want to be done yet im already 17!"

take a flashback of my 17.

erm.. i mean the 4 or 5 months ago.

i realize i've had a big big big changes.

how do u think?

first of all

im not anymore a monitor. Okay! Im so free. free until i got nothing to do during recess.

Second

im trying to improve my social skills.

*nod nod*

i've tried to speak and not to keep quiet and smile when other people talk to me.

i've tried to talk in another way. erm. which is giving some good respond? mayb?

i used to be the one who will just agree when other says. uhhh.. thats toooo BAD!!

third

i learn to disagree!!! ( funny.. rite?)

yea yea!

imma quarrel for anything which is unfair to me.

imma fight for anything which is mean a lot to me.

tat is not what i am previously.

Briefly.

i feel another new me.

how do u think?

New blog

This is new blog.

i've been planning to start a new blog few months ago.

hehe.

i guess they are right.

"plan your work. work your plan."

i've been so down lately.

is true. something did happened.

but i got nobody to tell.

i tried.

randy. mervin.

but that doesn't help.

they are not me.

i cant even explain my feeling. so how could they know what im trying to tell.

i guess here is the only place where i can write my feelings out.

i think that should help.

but to be precise.

i wish that blog could be my friend. or maybe a part of my life.

anyway.

wish me

HAPPY BLOGGING!!