long lasting or NOT?

guess you are the main reason

guess you are the one who made me feel so down lately

you know

i've always wanted to be strong. to be tough as others.

i've tried not to cry easily. i've tried to be independent.

really. i swear!

but to you.

i never wanted to be the tough girl in front of you.

i tell you what happened around me everyday.

and i never thought that would burden you.

im so sorry.

the moment i received my message. my heart SINK

compare to you.

my case is far less smaller and easy to handle.

i know.

that isn't a very serious thing actually.

but im trying to tell everything to you.

because i believe that would make me feel better.

sorry to be selfish.

cause i never thought that that would make you feel worse while im getting better.

for the last 3 years

you never vent your anger.

you never scold me.

you never scold vulgar in front of me. ( mayb u did. once or twice.. but u didn't mean to scold me. rite?)

i keep on convince myself that

you dont mean to be rude to me.

you dont mean to scold me.

you dont mean to hurt me.

you are not in a good mood.

i've run into you at a wrong time.

but that doesn't help me to stop thinking about the message.

i apologized. and you gave a well mannered respond.

maybe you never realized.

but i saw it.

the scratches.

it'll never recover.

i dont even know how to talk to you.

if i never text you. will u text me again?

for every now and then.

i keep an eyes on my phone screen.

waiting for your message.

acting like a silly.

im so scared to feel helpless whenever you are not around.

but you and i

will never be the same if we ever meet again. rite?

i dont know how long would this last.