If the clock run in anticlockwise way, I would be happier than ever.
I wished i can go through secondary school level again.
I wished i can involved in every activities in my school.
I wished i can join school debate team.
I wished i can join choir group.
I wished i can join Interact club and go for the Conference every year.
I wished i can join Chess group a few years earlier.
I wished i can be a more active scout.
I wished i can have the courage to try every thing in school.
I wished i have a chance to be a prefect.
I wished i have a chance to run my own club event like mei yan will do.
I wished i can improve my BM so that it will not keep dragging my footsteps.
I wished i was a better person.
I wished i dont have that hot temper.
I wished i learned more things.
I wished i know swimming
I wished i know how to play violin or piano.
I wished i can dance.
I wished i can sing.
I wished i can be the perfect one.
I wished i can be someone who is more responsible.
I wished i can be someone who is not that naive.
I wished i can treat every family member in a better way.
I wished i can be tougher than who i am.
I wished i can help out my parents more.
I wished i will not lost patient when i talk to older people.
How many wishes i have yet time is irreversible.
Stalie,
Please bear in mind.
This is the regret you have now.
I wish that regrets wouldnt grow as you grow years later.
I wish you spend every second in your life wisely.
I wish you will be a better person in ur life.
I wish you will cherish everyone in your life.
I wish at most,
live life with no regrets.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
U know how much i admire or envy you?
I saw kah ying's post about achieving her dream with so many obstacles yet she stand still with her opinion on pursue the study of photography.
I wished i was her, so passionate with one thing.
I wished i was her, know what she want in her life.
I actually had a dream, i wanted to be an accountant.
Teacher said students change their ambition once in a while, especially when they are growing up. I thought that i never will, but now i'm not sure what to do or where to go.
I was once wanted to go to LSE for accountant course. I did researched about the entry requirement, the living fees and scholarships. But now, i dont know if this is the right choice for me. Everyone said that is okay for me to decide later, after i have finished my SPM. But i dont want things to get started that late, when i was given a short time, i know myself very well will have choose the wrong thing. I dont want to be regret. I dont want to waste my life.
At first, i wished that i will study something related to maths, more on calculation. I have no idea about the further study, and my aunt is an accountant. Hence, that lead me to my first determination of being an accountant. Later on, i found that is kinda dry, boring. I wished i can have something different daily. I wished i can try different things. I dont want to live a life that repeated daily for another 30 years.
Soh reminded me on my likes in choosing game. Yes, it is! I love managing things. then, i linked it to hotel management. But everyone opposed it. I dont know if i should go for it, because i really dont know how those people worked and their job task. I wished i will be given a chance to go through a short period of their life, so that i can clearly understand how they worked and then choose the right course for me. and now, i have a great interest in handling money and investment.
can anyone guide me? I need guidance, not decision from you.
I wished i was her, found her own interest at this early age, know what to do, what to achieve in her life. I have nothing, only a wish of bringing my parents on a world tour which is somehow impossible to achieve.
I wished i was her, so passionate with one thing.
I wished i was her, know what she want in her life.
I actually had a dream, i wanted to be an accountant.
Teacher said students change their ambition once in a while, especially when they are growing up. I thought that i never will, but now i'm not sure what to do or where to go.
I was once wanted to go to LSE for accountant course. I did researched about the entry requirement, the living fees and scholarships. But now, i dont know if this is the right choice for me. Everyone said that is okay for me to decide later, after i have finished my SPM. But i dont want things to get started that late, when i was given a short time, i know myself very well will have choose the wrong thing. I dont want to be regret. I dont want to waste my life.
At first, i wished that i will study something related to maths, more on calculation. I have no idea about the further study, and my aunt is an accountant. Hence, that lead me to my first determination of being an accountant. Later on, i found that is kinda dry, boring. I wished i can have something different daily. I wished i can try different things. I dont want to live a life that repeated daily for another 30 years.
Soh reminded me on my likes in choosing game. Yes, it is! I love managing things. then, i linked it to hotel management. But everyone opposed it. I dont know if i should go for it, because i really dont know how those people worked and their job task. I wished i will be given a chance to go through a short period of their life, so that i can clearly understand how they worked and then choose the right course for me. and now, i have a great interest in handling money and investment.
can anyone guide me? I need guidance, not decision from you.
I wished i was her, found her own interest at this early age, know what to do, what to achieve in her life. I have nothing, only a wish of bringing my parents on a world tour which is somehow impossible to achieve.
Dont judge a book by its cover.
Have you guys ever wondered how well do you know about me? Well, I guess everyone has a different thought about me. But i really want to explain or to claim something clearly here.
First of all, i told u guys that i finished almost the Form 4 Chemistry in 1 day. Actually, some of the topic like Electrochemistry i have read it before, and i skipped. Thats why i seems to be faster than others. Then, i dont read every details mentioned in the book. What i do is to understand the theory and try to read every experiment and memorize all the definitions just right away the day before the paper was held. Hence i think i save a lot of time. I do a lot of practice and model papers because i think that can helps a lot and every teacher asked me to do so.
Second, i managed to finished 2 - 3 chapters of Sejarah in a day. Everyone heard of it look in amazement at me. But you do really think i can memorize all of them? Frankly speaking, NO! I DONT! and if i get an A in sejarah, that must be too lucky for me to read the right thing for the right question.
After all, i was kinda hurt when everyone talking to me like that, dont think that i'm that great. I'm not. Not at all.
Dont say that i'm born with this quick reading skill, dont say that i'm born with that calculating skill. Can you imagine how i do or behave when i was a kid?
I can barely remember that i was at the last placing of the class when i was 5, the first year of Kindergarden. Then, my mum sent me to tuition center when i was 6 on my request! i cant imagine how i would asked my mum to do so. Whatever it was, it doesn't matter. Lucky that my mum did send me to tuition center. I memorize, I read, I prepare for my primary Standard 1 when i was 6. When every little kid was having afternoon nap, i was memorizing the table for the multiplication. That makes me feel less burden when i got into primary school.
I read books on my own, i can remember how much i love to read. When the exam is coming, i forced myself to memorize the synonyms and everything. I placed at top 3 when i was Standard 1 and 2. But something bad happened, a little friend of mine improved a lot in his exam. His father rewarded him a watch, he showed me. I was small, he said that my parents dont love me and thats why they dont buy me things even i was better than him. He dont know that he broke my heart, tear it off into pieces. After that, i forced myself doing things with every best of mine. I can even be self-abused if i dont do things right. I thought i wasnt good enough to be loved and i wanted to improve more and more. I wanted to make them proud of me as if like every relatives of mine proud of their children. I wanted so much for their love. Until i fell down that night, my brother carried me and yelled at my neighbours. My mum cried over and over again, and thats how i feel their love. Thats how i know that love is something invisible that it couldnt gain my attention at all. I dont ask for money, i dont ask for presents from them. Money dont buy love. I understand. I can tell you that i have never asked a cent from my parents. They gave me on their own will. I saved, I dont asked for things. But i know if i asked, they will make sure that i have it. I know how lucky am i to be considerable for them. I understand how lucky am i to get such a parent that treat me a different way than others do.
You couldnt imagine how a hard life i have been through. You wouldnt have know if i never speak of it. What you can see is i'm was so lucky to be born with those ability. There are so many gifted people, but i'm not one of them. I know it very well and i wished all of u were. Dont judge me by how i looked. Dont think one was too lucky to succeed, u dint know how much they have worked. U just dont see how much effort they had give. You dont know how i have to worked hard in earlier days so that it will be a lesser job today. I know i'm not the one who went through the hardest life of all, I have a house, I have my parents my brother. I have eyes to see how beautiful the world is. I am neither retarded nor physical disable. Life treats me good, i know it.
Things dont fall from sky and dropped into your hands so coincide. If you dont worked hard, success wouldnt have knock your door. Every succeed man is the ordinary people who work harder than others. They were just you, still human. Dont think that succeed was given by God to them, God only help those who help themselves.
First of all, i told u guys that i finished almost the Form 4 Chemistry in 1 day. Actually, some of the topic like Electrochemistry i have read it before, and i skipped. Thats why i seems to be faster than others. Then, i dont read every details mentioned in the book. What i do is to understand the theory and try to read every experiment and memorize all the definitions just right away the day before the paper was held. Hence i think i save a lot of time. I do a lot of practice and model papers because i think that can helps a lot and every teacher asked me to do so.
Second, i managed to finished 2 - 3 chapters of Sejarah in a day. Everyone heard of it look in amazement at me. But you do really think i can memorize all of them? Frankly speaking, NO! I DONT! and if i get an A in sejarah, that must be too lucky for me to read the right thing for the right question.
After all, i was kinda hurt when everyone talking to me like that, dont think that i'm that great. I'm not. Not at all.
Dont say that i'm born with this quick reading skill, dont say that i'm born with that calculating skill. Can you imagine how i do or behave when i was a kid?
I can barely remember that i was at the last placing of the class when i was 5, the first year of Kindergarden. Then, my mum sent me to tuition center when i was 6 on my request! i cant imagine how i would asked my mum to do so. Whatever it was, it doesn't matter. Lucky that my mum did send me to tuition center. I memorize, I read, I prepare for my primary Standard 1 when i was 6. When every little kid was having afternoon nap, i was memorizing the table for the multiplication. That makes me feel less burden when i got into primary school.
I read books on my own, i can remember how much i love to read. When the exam is coming, i forced myself to memorize the synonyms and everything. I placed at top 3 when i was Standard 1 and 2. But something bad happened, a little friend of mine improved a lot in his exam. His father rewarded him a watch, he showed me. I was small, he said that my parents dont love me and thats why they dont buy me things even i was better than him. He dont know that he broke my heart, tear it off into pieces. After that, i forced myself doing things with every best of mine. I can even be self-abused if i dont do things right. I thought i wasnt good enough to be loved and i wanted to improve more and more. I wanted to make them proud of me as if like every relatives of mine proud of their children. I wanted so much for their love. Until i fell down that night, my brother carried me and yelled at my neighbours. My mum cried over and over again, and thats how i feel their love. Thats how i know that love is something invisible that it couldnt gain my attention at all. I dont ask for money, i dont ask for presents from them. Money dont buy love. I understand. I can tell you that i have never asked a cent from my parents. They gave me on their own will. I saved, I dont asked for things. But i know if i asked, they will make sure that i have it. I know how lucky am i to be considerable for them. I understand how lucky am i to get such a parent that treat me a different way than others do.
You couldnt imagine how a hard life i have been through. You wouldnt have know if i never speak of it. What you can see is i'm was so lucky to be born with those ability. There are so many gifted people, but i'm not one of them. I know it very well and i wished all of u were. Dont judge me by how i looked. Dont think one was too lucky to succeed, u dint know how much they have worked. U just dont see how much effort they had give. You dont know how i have to worked hard in earlier days so that it will be a lesser job today. I know i'm not the one who went through the hardest life of all, I have a house, I have my parents my brother. I have eyes to see how beautiful the world is. I am neither retarded nor physical disable. Life treats me good, i know it.
Things dont fall from sky and dropped into your hands so coincide. If you dont worked hard, success wouldnt have knock your door. Every succeed man is the ordinary people who work harder than others. They were just you, still human. Dont think that succeed was given by God to them, God only help those who help themselves.
Dear diary,
Sorry for not coming up any post lately.
I was busy preparing for my forecast paper, which means a lot with me. Cause you know this is will be the last real exam before i sit for the actual SPM.
every once in a while, bubble thought pop and burst, i have so many things to write about yet i dont know how should i start.
I think i should post them out in different post.
My first post of all is about my exam. It is going to end by this Friday. I admit that i dint prepare enough for these papers because i'm run out of time. I was so lucky that i spotted right a few question yet that doesn't help me a lot in scoring As.
A friend of mine, gan from KGV challenged me on Add Maths. Well, that was the paper that i usually score highest in my exam. But i fall asleep that day. Maybe i slept too late the day before. After all, many of my friends couldnt finish the paper on time. But i managed to try all the question and took a short nap. I felt so insecure cause i'm not sure if i left out some question, i was quite sleepy and kinda blur that moment. I dint intend to show off how good was I to be able finished and sleep while the others cant. Dont get me wrong, guys and girls. I really need your understanding.
Thats all about my forecast paper. Shall continue another topic on the next post.
Sorry for not coming up any post lately.
I was busy preparing for my forecast paper, which means a lot with me. Cause you know this is will be the last real exam before i sit for the actual SPM.
every once in a while, bubble thought pop and burst, i have so many things to write about yet i dont know how should i start.
I think i should post them out in different post.
My first post of all is about my exam. It is going to end by this Friday. I admit that i dint prepare enough for these papers because i'm run out of time. I was so lucky that i spotted right a few question yet that doesn't help me a lot in scoring As.
A friend of mine, gan from KGV challenged me on Add Maths. Well, that was the paper that i usually score highest in my exam. But i fall asleep that day. Maybe i slept too late the day before. After all, many of my friends couldnt finish the paper on time. But i managed to try all the question and took a short nap. I felt so insecure cause i'm not sure if i left out some question, i was quite sleepy and kinda blur that moment. I dint intend to show off how good was I to be able finished and sleep while the others cant. Dont get me wrong, guys and girls. I really need your understanding.
Thats all about my forecast paper. Shall continue another topic on the next post.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
good luck for all f5 students
Ohaiyo! my bloggy. sorry for leaving u such a long time.
let me tell you something that I'm going to sit for forecast paper tomorrow. Honestly, i'm quite nervous few days ago but when it gets closer to the date, i'm not that nervous anymore or maybe i don't give a damn at all.For the last weekdays, i bet you cant imagine that i have living through this kind of life. Wake up at 6, taking breakfast with reading books, read through all the important points that the teacher will probably teach, especially the redox reaction. Gosh, its killing me. Kinda complex at first, but it gets easier when i understand the theory. Thanks for the hard work i made for reading the same thing for 2 nights. When i reached school, i tried to use my time wisely, avoiding gossiping or fooling around with the others, but it seems that i failed. Lols. Doing every best that i can to finish the chemistry and sejarah. Lols, unbelievable, i cover 2 years Sejarah syllabus within a week time. I hardly finish 2-3 chapters each day after school. That made me stay up to 12 or 1am everyday. Then, i absent one day, it is when i accompanied my mum to hospital for check up. Everyone there look at me with a strange 'vision' because i was holding a packet of Mister Potato with a Sejarah textbook in another hand and walking around. Ew! i dont wish to do that, but im just too easy to fall asleep with that air conditioned environment, is not conducive at all for me to study! Too bad, i cant keep myself motivated like the days i had before since Friday. I lost all my interest in studying Sejarah,frankly speaking, SJ is so boring! and erm, thats why i cant make my mind clear and memorize the names and every detail.
Anyway, i think i can make it through for this forecast. And erm, this is not so important for me, cause i think i'm not going to take my forecast result to apply anything. So is ok for my to make mistake =P
Alright, have to go now and finish my revision. Nitez!
let me tell you something that I'm going to sit for forecast paper tomorrow. Honestly, i'm quite nervous few days ago but when it gets closer to the date, i'm not that nervous anymore or maybe i don't give a damn at all.For the last weekdays, i bet you cant imagine that i have living through this kind of life. Wake up at 6, taking breakfast with reading books, read through all the important points that the teacher will probably teach, especially the redox reaction. Gosh, its killing me. Kinda complex at first, but it gets easier when i understand the theory. Thanks for the hard work i made for reading the same thing for 2 nights. When i reached school, i tried to use my time wisely, avoiding gossiping or fooling around with the others, but it seems that i failed. Lols. Doing every best that i can to finish the chemistry and sejarah. Lols, unbelievable, i cover 2 years Sejarah syllabus within a week time. I hardly finish 2-3 chapters each day after school. That made me stay up to 12 or 1am everyday. Then, i absent one day, it is when i accompanied my mum to hospital for check up. Everyone there look at me with a strange 'vision' because i was holding a packet of Mister Potato with a Sejarah textbook in another hand and walking around. Ew! i dont wish to do that, but im just too easy to fall asleep with that air conditioned environment, is not conducive at all for me to study! Too bad, i cant keep myself motivated like the days i had before since Friday. I lost all my interest in studying Sejarah,frankly speaking, SJ is so boring! and erm, thats why i cant make my mind clear and memorize the names and every detail.
Anyway, i think i can make it through for this forecast. And erm, this is not so important for me, cause i think i'm not going to take my forecast result to apply anything. So is ok for my to make mistake =P
Alright, have to go now and finish my revision. Nitez!
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