Self discipline VS motivation

i went to counselling room today and talked about my study in school. Don't get me wrong. I'm not talking about FURTHER study, but study for my SPM. eg. my mid year exam. My overall result drop eventually but is not so obvious since i maintain the placing in class. Seriously, i don't mind about the placing but i'm more into the grades'. Well, for your information, i cant achieved the target for every subject. so is kinda upset? dissapointed? or fed up? compare to the others, i dont work hard as they do. i dont spend much time as they do. but still i manage to get a.. consider average result. i always thought that im so lucky and thats why i dont need to work so hard. but today ms. lee told me that i might have that luck for once or twice. but not everytime. right i got it. i tried to create a timetable, but i dont follow. i tried to plan my daily schedule, but i failed to work it out. i tried to set a daily basis or weekly basis target, but i never archieved it. for some of you, im sure u know my study pattern. i only study when my mood comes, and i dont bother to study or fail my exam if my mood is gone. oh yea, she countdown the SPM date for me. 140 days to go. seems to be a lot. but i'll have to covered 2 years syllabus within 140 days.it dont seems to be that easy now. i'm the one who lack of self discipline. i always knew it. and now she told me i have no motivation. maybe i have to find something to keep motivates me day by day. maybe i'll work hard. we made our promise. she asked me to study every day and report to her the next morning about my revision last night. sounds like. exxagerating? or childish? i dont know. i dont agree at first. or to say that im not dare to put this game on. because i know i cant do it. im sure im going to dissapoint her. and i really dont want to do this to a teacher who always care about us. and erm. she actually know this. and thats why she made this promise to keep me study so that i would not failed her. thanks. i appreciate what you do for me. yet, i havent study anything today. i tidy up my bedroom. i finished The Pearl. I finished the additional mathematics project ( is all done now). all these should have done earlier. but i procrastinate. Gosh. i really need some one to motivate me. A message a day. maybe a quote? i guess that is more than enough. i can really tell that i am nothing if i am all alone. i really need companion or friends doing all these for me. i bet im going to do the same thing to you if you manage to do so.Ew. anyway, i remember i received an email from a friend. giving me some moral support and advice on study. imma going to post it here. because is more easy to read here compare to keep it in the inbox. who is going to check the inbox and read the same email everyday, agree?
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Well Stalie, this is what you must have in mind :-
1. You must love your studies like you love your mum and dad and your brother.
2. You must have fun studies. Just like you want to have fun with your friends.
3. Have group study.
4. Important to concentrate during classes and tuition.
5. Plan your study.
6. Everybody have a dream and you must chase your dream.
7. Learn every time you fail or done something wrong.
8. At your age pls don't get attach with boys. Treat them as friend and don't get into relationship. Well Stalin, you have long way to go and GOD will give you your soul mate once he thinks it's a right time. This is very important.
9. Keep yourself fit and stress out by doing exercise.
10. Get enough sleep and always be happy and always smile.
11. Last but not least. Don't forget GOD. Pray and talk to GOD everyday.

Well, you read and just think about it. The future is in your hand. You have to help yourself first then GOD will help and support you. GOD is always there for you.
Take good care of yourself and always be happy.
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I'm not going to mention who wrote all these for me. but thanks for being supportive. and i wish someone around me would be how the friend above like. well. i know is not so realistic or possible to make someone to be like how i wanted. is not fair. i know i know. hehe. stalie, try not to be mean and sarcastic to ur friends.
And i would like to share this small 'notes' with my readers. thank you.